“I’m just not enough. I’m failing him.”
My words have echoed through our narrow galley kitchen more than once in the last couple months.
Being kind, patient, and forbearing, in general has been difficult.
When an animal is wounded, it strikes even the hands that want to help it heal.
And so our family is. When we broke open the love-lines of a family and inserted a foreign body into them, the family’s corpus was wounded. It’s difficult not to strike out against healing and helping hands. Or at each other.
Many days, I feel like I’m failing my oldest child. You see, homeschooling in this time of transition has been difficult.
And our oldest needs the structure, and our newest needs so much everything-all-the-time..
Our oldest is brilliant and energetic and needs to be challenged, or boredom will lead to unruly behaviors.
I’ve felt torn in 83,427 directions.
Breathe grace in. Breathe grace out.
But, the feeling lingers perpetually. And an old poem from Martin Luther is brought to mind.
Feelings come and feelings go,
And feelings are deceiving;
My warrant is the Word of God–
Naught else is worth believing.
So what does God’s word say about my sufficiency? Am I enough? Can I be enough?
I alone am not enough. (Mi alone is only me.)
But we’ve been given all that we need– All things that pertain to life and godliness.
We are sufficient—I am sufficient—through God.
And then the words leap off the page, humbly encouraging me to press on.
“And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that having all sufficiency in all things at all times, you may abound in every good work.”
All grace. All sufficiency. All things. At all times.
The property of abundance means more than an adequate supply. My God will supply all of my needs in more than an adequate supply.
And I have grace breathed into me. My God will supply His grace, abundant-more-than-necessary grace, so that my good works can be abundantly more than necessary.
And the grace that He more than abundantly supplies will be more than sufficient for the child that I feel like I am failing.
And I’ve been given enough.
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